34lbs....................

Ok i have 34lbs to go and i am can't seem to shake this WHY ?? really me and Hubby had a DEEP talk last night about how i felt why i was feeling this way what happened to the Strong women i was ? where did she go ? will i find her again ? it is FAST approaching one yr since i started this journey I'm so Pleased with my self i am still on it and not have gained lots back i think it was just MY time to be ME the real me that i have always wanted to be !! i knew this girl was hiding deep in side and wanted out ! so i can't let her go i need her she needs me ! i have to work at this i need to STOP the self SABOTAGE!!
you would think that losing over 100lbs that 34 lbs would be walk in the park but SHIT it is NOT i am so addicted to food it is SCARY ........ i so know what people feel like that have addicitons YIKES it is truly a scary thing ..........
af is dragging me down big time this week it is sucking the life from me ................

I READ SOMTHING CUTE ON A BOARD YESTERDAY IT IS SO ME :
"I KNOW THERE IS A SKINNY GIRL INSIDE ME SCREAMING TO COME OUT BUT I QUITE HER WITH COOKIES "