I DID IT ~*!*!*!*!*!*!*

I hit my 1,000 miles for 2010 wooo hoooo!!

now if i could get my eating back on track i would be even more happier gah life was really tossed and for me the only way i know how to deal is EAT :( totally BUMMER but such is life i am going to get back on track !!

me and Hubby also decided we are going to run the bolder boulder together this yr !! i am so happy no i will not be by my time last yr but the whole things is that we are going to make it our couple get away !! ya ! can't wait !!

Vibrams

since i am starting to do a little bit of barefoot running i thought i would get me some vibrams i love them ! i did 2 miles but i think i should have started a bit more slow lol my ankels still are a bit sore a few days later lol
as for my weight loss at a stand still BELH !! i need to pick it up to get to goal !! before the holidays lol or heack maintain till after right ha ha we shall see !!
as for tummy tuck feeling great !! still a little sore here and there but i know for one thing i never regreat any of it !!! love looking down at my body to see a flat tummy not a huge Mess of saggy skin :)

2 yrs down Many more to goooooooo...

i have kept off 100+ lbs as of today what a GREAT Feeling this is !! and i know i just have many more to come this is a life style to me now !! there is no going back !!

BareFoot RUNnnNING ..

Yep why not i think i am putting all my long distance running on hold for a while so why not try somthing FUN and new ... so yesterday the Queen in me said i should start out on my treadmill I KNOW WINNEY lol but it worked it was fun and nothing reall sore so tha is a good thing only went 1 mile :)

Rendezvous 5k 2010

it was a COLD morning but so worth it i had a lot of FUN this was my 3rd time running this 5k i ran a 29.48 not to bad since i just had surgery 3 months ago :)

5k Tomorrow

Tomorrow is my 1st 5k since my surgery i am excited i am not going to push myself to much cause my knee is acting weird and my son mite run with me so it should be a good time stay tuned for pics this is the 3rd yr i have ran this 5k :)

WOW !! WHAT a Month

sorry everyone i am still here working away on getting to the 135 goal !! life has not been on my side lately but i am NOT going to give in and let it get me down !!
i have worked up to 3 miles in a little over 30 mins so not bad but can i see the 14 any where ahead NOT SO MUCH i think i am giving up long distance running that was short lived huh but we will see when i keep working up !!
as for my weight 144 WOOOT WOOOT rock it LOL
my plans for this month just get the 3 miles to feel easier and then work to 4 work on ellepitical every other day right now i am runing the 30 mins and elliptical 40 mins i am feeling good after both so that is good but i do still have to were spanks for running i forgot then on a run last wk OMG my hips KILLED !! (well skin where my insection ends )
so for now i am going to whip LIFE ! be AMY and feel GREAT ! i am NOT going to let anything that has happend this month let me down !!!

Later 150ville

HELLO 140 VILLE WOOOOHOOO i am the lowest i have ever been this journey i am feeling so GREAT !! so my next stop is 145 HERE I COME !!!!
as for the TT i am feeling wonderful my aug goal is to jog a full 2 miles and then work on speed :) WOOOT !!

Can't see ME FOR ME

It sucks yes i have lost so much weight(121 lbs) but i can't see me for me i feel like that fat girl i have been for 30 + yrs !??!!? i put on my Bikini today and walked out side i FEARED i was going to SCARE that daylights out of someone :( i then thought it would be cool to POST on FB WHAT for that BRIEF second i felt GOOD !! then i thought AMY WTF !?!!?!?!? are you thinking DELETE it and FAST so i did GAH why can't i feel good in my own skin i know my tummy needs work but it will be fixed SOOOO Then will i feel better ????

Almost 6wk ..... WOOOHOOO

today i hit 11 lbs Loss since my Surgery Date !!! i am so excited i really think that having this done gave me back the spark i needed to get to my goal weight !!!
1st stop is 149 i can't wait to see that # !!!
today was day 2 of my getting speed back right now i am only running every other day i do get tired really fast when i jog so takin it really slow !!

5wks DOWN and Jogged ..

SLOW mite i add but i jogged the whole time i wanted to see how my body would react like swelling and all so far so good !!

THE SCAR.........

Ok so i relized in MOST pics i HIDE my scar so here it is well half of it in all IT's GLORY

i am feeling GREAT i get down at times where it sucks !!! i can't wait till i can get the revision done !!

4WKS DOWN !!

I am feeling so good NO pain at all SLEEPING great Drian FREE !! ( one drian Hole is still Leaky ) but over all i am feeling GREAT ! if i have my binder off to long my Muscle repair does get sore i still get tired faster but ... that to will all get better !! i am up to walking 3miles wooohooo it is hard to jog in my binder i am all stiff and tight lol so i think if i get to remove it a bit on wk 6 i will try to jog more :)

23 DPO ........... AND ..........

The Drian is GONE not so sure it was a good thing i should have kept it a while longer but today i woke up went for a walk and just added a little jog in there but there was also hills in this walk with it being longer so not sure where i messed up at lol but ...i got home was taken off my clothes to see my drian didn't have any thing at the top so i moved it stuff moved inside so i though oh must have had a kink in it while i was walking with the shorts i had on till i took them off and there was drianage all over YIKES what happend pulled my drian out to see it was full of air so i tried to squeeze it where the drian would then start to suck yuck back out welllll that didn't work i tried a few more time and thought OH what the heck i am pulling it out so i did it has been leaking bad today and i HOPE i don't get any fluid bulid up for i call my dr and all should be ok :) so YA YAYAY drian FREE and to celebrate here is a pic

JOGGED ..

YES i did jogged 3 blocks today and felt nice i could have went for more but not going to PUSH it yet !!
i still have my drian but the last 24 hrs i am down to 27 cc WOOOOT so almost there !! (today i snept my stitch today i was so OVER it hurting and i know that it is going to come out soon !!) get this ! i am going to remove it myself !! ha ha well Hubby or mom who ever wants the job hubby has a weak tummy so it mite be my mom LOL pics to come on that lol

THANKS SO MUCH TO ALL OF YOU THAT ARE SO SUPPORTIVE TO ME I LOVE YOU ALL
TRACI I LOVE !! GIRL SO WISH WE LIVED CLOSER !!

Yet another MOUNTIAN to climb

so today was my appt 3wks !! yay we talked about doing my boobs we set the date as Oct 13th BUT depending how much she qotes me at i MITE have to move the date to FEB witch would be fine Plastc Surgery is NOT Cheep lol and Hubby does NOT want a Loan so this will be $$ SAVED so with that being said
it looks as tho i am going to get a revision of my tummy to as the swelling goes down you can see some skin starting to sag around my belly button my Dr thought she should have done a T scar but since we didn't talk about it she didn't want me to wake up and FREAK at 1st i was NOT on board with this but now i am the more flatter i can get the better so HERE WE GO AGAIN lol she tell me this time around is NOT going to be as bad since there is NO muscle work this time i REALLY HOPE that is the CASE
GAH MY 1 WISH IS THAT I WOULD HAVE NEVER EVER EVER EVER DONE TO THIS TO MY BODY NOW I PAY FOR IT IF I JUST WANT TO LOOK LIKE EVERYONE ELSE

Well.. it was a Try ...

Jogged i gave it a shot today i was just feeling so great this am SLEEP is so much better now that it can be done on my hips !! YAY !! so i get up at 5 am head out for my walk listing to Sexy Bit@h by the way i am feeling it so i think LETS do this AMY it felt weird i am so tight everywhere it makes for a funny feeling so i get going and OUCH!!!! my hips are UBER tight i felt like i was going to BUST at the seams LMAO !! but that is the onlly way to say it best !! so i now know i will just have to work at it alittle more i will get there and i know it will been SOONER than Later ........


ok so i thought i would share with you a pic of what i have to WEAR ALL DAY LONG :)
also a few new tummy shots in clothes after my walk today WOOOHOO NO SAGGY BAGGY over my shorts !!!

Hey Ames is feeling like this NOW ;)

SLEEP !?!?!?

SLEEP was that what that was OMG !! we headed to my mil for a few days tho the road trip ws rought a long(5hr) road for a sore tummy i feel THIGHT !! when i get out of the car but all in all it was good but i could NOT take any kind of sleeping on my BACK ANY MORE... so i gave sleeping a try on my sides GOAL !! i slept good !! yayayay i got up this am went for a walk just felt AMAZIN.... i so wanted to add a little jog in there but the inner me said NO AMY just wait so i am going to give it alittle but longer just working on my distance not so much pace right now
Happy 4th ... I know i am Loving Live & all my choices i have chose !!
WHAT A JOURNEY....

17 days past op

YAYAYAYAYAY!! i am one drain down let me tell you it is all worth it i know 1 but if only you knew lol 1 is better then None in this case i promise lol so i go back on the 7th MAYBE just Maybe the 2nd one will come out to :)

2wk post Op..

Things are getting BETTER here for me ya ya yaya ... sleep is better still have to lay still and flat on my back but my leg is all good !!
i am down to 18 min miles when i started earlier this week it took me 28 mins that 1st mile !! ya me !!!
all the soreness pretty much gone already more like a numb feeling now that kinda sucks but i love my new look still swollen on one side more then the other and really bad about bikini line in the middle YIKES i think this is more from the drains YES i still have these horried things !!! i am just going to HOPE they will come out on my next appt on July 8th one can hope right lol
soo all in all SO GLAD i made this choice i could not have been happier !! with my results and it only gets better from here
i am already talking about my next surgery !!! lol i HOPE will happen in OCT !!!! WOOOOT

Bikini FUN....... 13 Days Past OP

i am only 13 days past Operation and i tossed one in there so we know what i used to look like :)

I Got This The Ugly Truth...

so today it really hit me Amy was going to have a PITY PARTY !!!!! why you ask you seem to have it all going in the right way sure i do the thought of did i make the right choice to be REALLY REAL with you all this pain is so much more that i thought i thought i would wake up looking like barbies twin HA HA HA not so much ! i want to really let you all know what has been going on in this little head of mine !

Day 1 i was so Ready for this in more ways that i can even type about i wanted this more than ANY thing i have wanted in MY LIFE !! so i never really gave any thought to much of it other then what i WOULD look like i was not even that scared when i went in yes i was having some high blood pressure so i know there was alittle but of me being SCARED
the dr came in marked my tummy got me already they gave me some calming meds and from here it all WENT fast !! i some what remember going in to the operating room them asking me to get over to the table i did then i ember the anthologist say i am going to put this mask on you just breath BAM i was out to wake up to my hubby by my side like he always is GOD i love that man !! they were telling him a whole lot of what to do and how to do it lol with in the hr i was being wheeled out and off to my motel room where i have to say i had so much meds nothing really hurt and i kept up with my meds like i was suppose to and slept well in the recliner

DAY 2
off to the dr office for my appt at 9:30 GAH i was dying to see what was under all the wrap i knew for sure i was IN PAIN WOW PAIN well was it pain or soreness tightness pain all in one is i guess how i would say it so i am hunched like an old lady slowly walking along i get in the room , here it goes the MUCH awaited time for me to see what i have been waiting for, what i have been wanting more then ANYTHING in the world !!! i get in the on the table she gets me nice and comphy , starts to unwrap me (keep in mind i told everyone i was sure i was going to BUST out in tears of joy)so i am in that mind set it was all i knew for the past 2 yrs of wanting this so BAD !!! oh here it is she pull off the last of the wrap and OMG ARE YOU KIDDING me really AMY what did we just do did we make the right choice ??? should we just have kept the skin would the skin have looked better then THIS WHAT OMG i could NOT say any thing i was totally SPEECHLESS !! i didn't like what i seen NOT in the least bit i was HORRIBIFED to be very honest with you i know my dr knew i was not happy , i am sure she has seen this before she just wrapped me back up asked if i had any questions i said no and let me go home to start this journey of healing ....
got home ,told my mom look my belly button is under my chin i look horrible ,everyone around me just kept saying AMY you have to heal JUST give it time i don't know how many times i want to break down but i felt i couldn't i could let my Hubby know that what he worked so hard to give was NOT what i thought it was going to be so i just bottled it all up , kept truckin

DAY 3
i slept in the recliner at home cause the pain soreness ,drains all it will NOT allow you to sleep any other way i got up , took a shower still looking at the new me in the mirror i had my doubt i can say i was till not happy tiring to get any one in my house to tell me i LOOKED FAB but no one want to say much they knew it was on thin ice for me so i love that my family will respect that and just let mom have her moment lol all i could think about still is my belly button looks high oh well done now get dressed , be over it done what can we do now !
Day 4
just a whole lot of laying around i didn't even want to get in the shower in fear i would have to face what i didn't want to !!!! so i just stayed nice and medicated up

Day 5
got up took a shower it just felt right that day i was feeling good took a shower as i unwrapped that morning i LOVED what i was seeing the swelling was going down wow that was what made it look so much like a train wreak my belly button *cute * mite i add i love it i just needs time to heal and i could not see that, i still have swelling to go today so that just means it gets better every day !!! yay!!

Day 6 till NOW i just love to look at the new tummy in the mirror it is looking Better every day !! i am happy with the choice i made !!
so you ask why the pity party today !!
the pain soreness what ever it all is it really gets overwhelming at times i still can't sleep laying down , any thing i do really my drains HURT i so want them out , i know that will make this healing process a whole lot better so i think not being the active person i was , the pain mix just really gets me down i sit so much that my butt hurts i have NOT been like this in YRS !! it is not me and is kinds depressing !!

Brings me to today i was tiring to find any vblog on tummy tucks i could on youtube i love to see what i have commming what they went though and all so i find BECKY if only this girl would know how much she changed my world today all i can say is wow !! THANK you BECKY you got me to realize i GOT this i can do this !! Thank YOU FOR THAT
here is her 1 yr video i Cried my eyes out really i can't wait to make one myself tho she does not come from the weight loss side of it i still LOVE her to pieces !!

www.youtube.com/user/beckrsr

1 wk Of Healing

I think i am making some progress :) last night i even got to lay flat in my bed but only for about 20 mis but my hips were so sore not sure if my binder was to tight or if i am just not ready to lay flat but either way i will try again in a few nights :)

Dr appt today

My appt went well ,i hate the drive that it is 2 hrs away, i didn't take any meds cause i knew i had to drive so i did good i guess i took my nana for a back up driver but i did it ! i felt every bump in the road how ever :( so about 15 mins before i got there i took a muscle relaxer got up to my appt i knew that by the looks of my drains they were NOT going to come out today :(
REALLY i think that the drains are so PAINFUL !! just like a naggy kind of pain since they are stitched in a BAD spot
she wants the fluid to get a little lighter & a total of only 20 cc coming out i get about 30cc in about 12hrs so if it goes down by next wk i can go back and get them OUT or i have another appt on the 8th so it could be 1 more wk or 2 OH JOY but i know in time this will all be over
i still am VERY swollen every where my tummy,hip, my feet & legs :( i can't wait for all this to go down
i talked to her about standing up strait it is really tight when i try but she says just keep working at it that i would not hurt any thing either way but my back will hurt from slouching
i got the 3 stitches out that were in my belly button :)
i have the ok to WALK as i want i should know what my body can do she said just add a little each day :)
i will take pics tomorrow of everything :)

The Price we will pay ?

This is taken on 6\17\10
Day after when i got home



WOW !! Really the Price we pay to want to look good ??!?!? what was i thinking i am sure in the long run i will LOVE this ! but wow ! wow ! wow ! i have been such an active person over the past 2 yrs that now all i can do is sit i try to get up and walk every few hrs but it takes forever ,& i am sore tho i can tell it is getting better!

4 DAYS !!!

I Guess it is time for me to Blog about what is about to go on with me !!! i am not sure if i said anything about me looking into getting a tummy tuck or not on my blog it has been a while but back in sept i went to the Dr and we were tyring to get our ins to help pay after waiting for EVER i got the BAD news that they would NOT help
:( so at that point i had NO Way to come up with $7,160 to get it done :( i was CRUSHED i remember getting the call as i was on the treadmill and just breaking down in a SOB why cause i felt i really DESERVED this i worked so hard for this i want to be able to look in the mirror and see that rocken girl that i feel ! so i just learned to DEAL on May 14th ON my Hubbys BDay he gave me the BEST gift EVER !! he handed me a check to go and get it done !!! again i was a sobbing MESS i do this often just the thought that something so GREAT is going to happen to me !! YA YA!!! so i did my pre op on May 27th and set the DATE witch is June 16th at this point i am getting a little SCARED but i KNOW i want this MORE then anything right now i just don't know what to think of the pain that mite go on i had all our kids c\s so i kinda get what it mite feel like so here WE go i will not be able to run for 10wks WOW will that really work for me i have only missed 23 days of working out since i started my journey just over 2 yrs ago so i am going to have to be CAREFUL of what i eat for the next few months !! the good thing is i am sure all the skin i have weighs at leat 5lbs if not more i tell you it is a ton !! i will be posting before and afters so keep an eye out for that and all the updates so here we go blogger land :) wish me luck for wed ......

Goodall Gallop 5k with my son

WHAT A FEELING it is to get out there and race with my son !!! HE ROCKED!! he is only 9 and ran the whole way !!! we came in at 30.38 he got 3rd in his age to only be beat out by some high school Cross Counrty runners !!! GO JARON !! Mom loves you so much !! you truly ROCKED today !

Bolder Boulder pics

All my saggy GLORY as i run lol

brightroom event photography

Bolder Boulder BABY !!

6.2 miles
1 h 3 m 46 s
WHAT a wonderful day it was OMG i had so much FUN !!! the course was GREAT the People of Boulder made it FUN there was so much going on the whole way on the course you didn't even have time to realize you were running from Water to cookouts to drinks being handed out to marshmallows being tossed at you WOW as i sit here and think what a GREAT time i had NOT ONLY for the simple FACT I AM A RUNNER ..... that my friends i NEVER thought i would say i am tearing UP !! to get out on a course and RUN just cause you can FEELS so GREAT !! i know i have ran 13 miles a few times so why make the 6.2 a BIG thing i guess the feel of a RACE is just so filling that just you running can't touch i had my whole family there with me it was GREAT ! there were 54,000 runners this is the 2nd biggest 10k in the world !! WOW REALLY i look forward to it next yr !!
STATS
Here is My Results 1h3m46s OVER all out of 54,000 i was 19,483 out of my Division i was 258 out of 644 out of just my gender i was 7,464 out of 25,851* it was fun and well worth it all :)

Going to Run Like a Girl ..

So with my new running skirt and my new bondiband i Ran like a Girl this am tho my skirt is to big :( I hope maybe i can wash and dry it then it will fit better DARN!!
i didn't get to run the 13.1 miles i wanted to cause i had a sick baby all night CRABBY HUBBY so the mix just didn't make it GREAT i stayed in bed till almost 10 am WOW have not done that in YRS ! we all must have had a bad night
my Friend Chris ROCKED her 1st half i am so Proud of her with out her asking me to do this i would not have pushed myself for more miles EVER ! she got me running miles i never thought i could !!! LOVE YOU CHRIS !!!